This morning I was given a full time offer for after I graduate next Spring.
It wasn’t until 4 hours later did it really hit me.
Two years ago I hit rock bottom. Those who were close to me at the time know how bad it was. It was a stage of complete hopelessness and trying to escape reality. Then it was a bottle of pills.
Dragging myself out of that stage has not been an easy process. I distanced myself from a lot of people and became very self-focused. But it was an uphill battle and I was so focused on trying to improve that I never slowed down to look at what I’ve accomplished.
And now, at this moment, it all hit me.
In the past year alone I’ve:
Became financially responsible for myself
Got an internship in DC
Raised the cutest puppy in the world
Got all A’s as a math major while working 20+ hours a week
Rebuilt my relationship with my parents
And now received a full time offer.
I think the best part of all of this is not the accomplishments. It’s not the fact that I’m the happiest I’ve been all my life.
It’s the fact that for the first time, I can finally say that I’m proud of myself.
The red washing
down the bathtub
can’t change the color of the sea
god I am so tired of people throwing roses at my feet as I walk by